Some kind person called me an author the other day and it felt decidedly odd. I’m a writer although more often than not I call myself a storyteller.
Writing is what I do, not ‘authoring.’ (Which must however be a thing otherwise spellcheck would have told me off.) Author is a construct, a passing conceit which I’m not altogether sure I understand. Writer is authentic. It describes a physical act made of pencil shavings and the tapping of a keyboard.
The idea that anyone would refer to me as an ‘author’ is genuinely bewildering. But maybe all writers have an alter-ego and once they get a publishing deal, that’s who it is. The Author – all fancy frock and no knickers vying for her place alongside the writer in her PJs.
I’m writing another book now. Back to the beginning, slightly more visible but nevertheless, on draft zero with only an idea and a hunger to do it all again. There can be no expectation, which makes it slightly scary. Maybe I do need a bit of ‘author me’ if only to buoy my confidence.
And there’s a nice paradox here, which the discerning amongst you will have spotted. Who wrote this – the author or the writer?
I’m the storyteller.
Are you sitting comfortably?
*Margaret Atwood
I feel exactly the same way. I go for ‘writer’ when people ask what I do because it makes sense to me: I demonstrably write (even for a living, albeit not fiction) but author… it’s not just that it’s slightly pretentious, it’s more that it’s… abstract somehow (?) and doesn’t feel like a job title!
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Abstract is exactly it. Not quite real.
Thank you for dropping by! 🙂
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No worries – in fact, thinking about it a little more, I’m thinking I could imagine being the author of a particular piece of work and that feeling okay, it’s more what I do on a day to day basis, what I’m doing with my life… that’s writing!
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I’ve always felt strange saying, “I’m an author,” too. I’m a writer. Author, to me, needs OF tacked on. Like, I’m the author of Seeking Carolina. I’m the author of several books. Writer doesn’t work so well there. Subtle but definite difference. 🙂
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I feel the label ‘author’ needs to be earned. And that it takes years. I’ve always owned ‘writer’ though as, by & large, I’ve always been scribbling something. And I dislike ‘aspiring.’ We’re either writing we aren’t. 😉
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his post struck a chord Carol. I find the label ‘author’ a wee bit pretentious for me and struggles to claim to be a ‘writer’ for a long time too.
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